Please, please, please! I need advice!

REALLY badly!

I'll love you forever!

& ever!

& ever!

so on...

and so on..

and so on...

etc

etc

okay, I'm done now, ;)

 GROUNDED Again!

& It really stinks! All my other friends get to run around at night with their friends and stay gone alllll night long (but they just have to continuously check in with their parents) but 'nooo'! I can't! And I'm frickin older than them! I went to the park which is practically 2 ft away (okay, im exaggerating, but it is SO close) to swing with a friend at 4:30 in the morning, and my mom wakes up to find we're not at home and she calls my cell and I tell her where I am and that I'm OKAY and she freaks out on me! She treats me like a baby, literally. But I'm her OLDEST kid. =(

 I HATE SCHOOL..

Well actually, I like it a lot, kinda. I get good grades because I really want to be a Pediatrician when I grow up, and I have a great group of friends! The only thing I hate is that.. I'm friends with a bunch of guys because the live so close to me we hung out.. but they never came to my school! But then when they did come to my school, they realized I'm not 'popular' and now the ignore me! But before they came to my school they thought I was HOT and COOL, but then as soon as the get a glimpse of my reputation at school life I'm suddenly retarded and a nobody.

 So I like this boy...

 And he's really hot, and really popular, and he flirts with me SO much! We've kissed a BAZILLION times and he really seemed like he liked getting dared to kiss me so much (in a game of truth or dare, lol) and he is sooo darn adorable I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM! We hung out for like a week straight because he lives so close to me we just meet up somewhere and hang! I've only told 2 of my friends that I like him, but I'm really afraid that someone will make fun of me for liking a 7th grader (I'm in 8th).. but I'm also nervous because he's coming to my school next year, and since he's popular and I'm not... =/! I just need some insights! His friend called me and told me he REALLY likes me and that he was going to ask me out the other night. I keep pretending I don't like him, and he does the same to me, but it's just HARD! Errrgh...

 Almost Done!

I am so happy that I won't have to do anymore community service! After today and tomorrow, I will be DONE! Hopefully! I'm going to help out at the Church's office. I'll be filing and stuff! It shouldn't be too hard! I'll be there for 4 hours today, and like 6 hours tomorrow! I know I can do this! And after I'm done with community service and writing my apology letters to the last 2 stores, my P Officer will close my case! YAY me! (lol)

 Doing it ALL for myself!

 I woke up this morning at 4:00! & I went to bed around 12, midnight. That's only 4 hours of sleep! Plus, my family and I went out to Coco's for dinner last night to celebrate the 4th of Jully (it's a family tradition) and I stuffed myself silly (lol) so I should'a had a wonderful full night's sleep. But only 4 hours? I'm gonna be so tired! Anyways, what I meant to blog about is my idea about getting fit! I really want to tone up! I want to have a flat stomach and tight legs and arms! I'm only 13 & a half (as of yesterday since my birthday is on Jan. 4th!) and I weigh around 110, usually. I know that's not a lot, and I'm not fat, but I'm just not really thin and tone like I really want to be! I have a gym membership and a mom who pushes me to go every single day (my mom is such and inspiration though, really, she has lost over 70 lbs. during the past 3 years and she only eats the healthiest. She has taught me all about health and fitness and how our bodies respond to working out and stuff, I'm completely knowledgable and determined to reach my goals, I know I am!) so I'm going to go at least 5 days a week! The only sweets I'll eat will be after a work-out or for desert! And I will run a mile each day if possible! If I go to the gym in the morning.. I will run in the evening. & Vice Versa. I will do classes with my mom if I can and encourage one of my best friends, Mandy, to go with me too (she already has a membership) so we can do yoga and Body Jam classes together! I'd also like to make goals to become more focused on my spiritual life with Christ again. I'm very active and participant in church events with my youth group and I truly love it! I have made the best group of friends since I started going to youth group with kids of my age and I am inlove with it 100%! We have the most fun together! I've gone to Disneyland and California Adventures with them and had the most fun of my life! It was a special treat for me because the last and only time I went to DL was when I was 4! This summer my youth group will be going to Six Flags and Magic Mountain! But don't think I'm only in it for the field trips! That is SO not true! I absolutely love serving the Lord and letting Him know I and a true Christian and have faith 100%! My goals spiritually are just to continue growing spiritually with my youth group, and to spread the Word on to my friends who are and who are not Christians themselves! I hope to find 20 minutes of my day, everyday, to read God's word, (the Bible) and meditate. I will stay PURE until I'm married to a handsome Christian man (lol) try my hardest not lie! ALL SECRETS ARE BAD (or so my mom tells me) but I believe her and I know God knows what's going on inside my head, and only good comes from good, and only bad comes from bad. AND ABSOLUTELY NO CUSSING! Or at least I will try my hardest. But I am pretty darn good at that already. I use to be a cussaholic but then I stopped because I knew the Lord wasn't pleased. And now it's just a habit, not to cuss, only on rare occasions, like when I'm joking around with my friends, but even then it isn't NES-SES-SARY (I don't know how to spell it, lol). So I take this time, as of the 5th of JULY, to rejuvinate myself and serve the Lord and my body, the temple of Christ!